Tuesday, October 27, 2009

A heavy post ...

Ok , I'm sure that you are waiting for me to lower the boom with horrifying news because of the title of this post ( oh yeah and I haven't posted anything in forever , OOPS !) Well here we go ... I'm fat, hence the title " heavy post , get it ?! Well I thought it was cute ! Now before you get all bent out of shape thinking " how very un-politically correct of her " , fat is not a bad word , it's just descriptive . Now I'm willing to admit it can be hurtful when used inappropriately ... For instance " Oh my gosh , did you see how FAT she is ?!" or " DEAR LORD did you see the size of her FAT rear end ?!" . Come on people , we all think those things but we really shouldn't say them out loud :-)
Anyhoo , back to what I was saying , I'm fat ! Not morbidly obese or anything , but got a little too much junk in my trunk . It is unbelievably depressing how much more of an issue this is the closer I get to 30 , which won't be for another two years and some change !
I've got to do something about it , it is officially running my life . I wake up in the middle of the night thinking about all of my clothes that I can't wear , but refuse to get rid of because I " might" be able to wear them again. This has got to be a sickness... So , since the FDA can't seem to make a " skinny" pill , and I really do wonder why , they've got a miracle pill for EVERYTHING else ! I guess I'm going to have to quit whining about it ( Yes Grandma I know I shouldn't be whining about anything at my age ) and do something about it !
I'm afraid one day I'm going to wake up in some warped version of that movie "Shallow Hal" where the guy has a curse put on him because he only likes girls for their look and now he can only see women's inner beauty ... Yeah all that to say , I really LOVE that Brent says I look great to him , but lets not get carried away !
I'm not saying I want to look like I did when I was 18 again , plus I'm pretty sure that impossible anyway , but I would like to not avoid mirrors and cameras :-)
Sooooo, I'm not going to tell you how much I weigh , I don't think Mom could handle the truth of it :-) but I AM going to keep track of what I'm eating and how much I'm exercising so you can all bust me if I start to slack off !
All I ask is that you BE KIND !!!!